the adams' blog

Little Red (Rube) is nearly here, and I have to admit that I’ve had some anxiety about her arrival. At first the anxiety came from the prospect of becoming a dad. I couldn’t get past the thought that there will be a little girl coming into the world whom I would be responsible for. I guess that’s normal. However, there have been other things that have worried me during the last month or so.

I’ve worried about Jessica’s and little Red’s health. I don’t consider giving birth to be a lightweight event in a woman’s life. Anything can happen. Also, from the videos I’ve seen (most of which, I turn my head, or look away from) birth can be very stressful on babies, even when a c-section is done. So I worry about that, too.

Yet another thing I’ve worried about is being in the delivery room when all of this goes down. I’ll definitely be excited, but I just can’t imagine being in the room when either 1) my wife gets an incision in her abdomen big enough to pull a 9-pound baby through, or 2) my wife actually gives natural birth to a 9-pound baby. I realize that either of these two things are much worse on Jessica than they are on me, but the mental stress of witnessing either of these two events is very high for me, personally.

Then there’s the change of life as we know it. That we’ll have a third member of our family that we’ll have to take into consideration before we just decide to go to the Waffle House at 12 or 1am. Things will change in our personal lives, such as sleeping, eating, us visiting people, people visiting us, church-life and activities, personal activities, etc.

Some friends of ours just had triplets about a month ago. Right after that happened, my anxiety got much worse. On my first visit to their house to see the first baby that came home, I got pretty nervous thinking about how my life was about to change, and I got a nervous stomach and had to give up holding the baby.

Throughout this month of anxiety, I’ve also developed some high blood pressure. I’ve never had high blood pressure in my life, yet I have high blood pressure now… go figure!

Even though it may sound like I’m complaining in this post, I’m not. I’ve been extremely excited about Little Red getting here. I got over the anxiety after a while, and now I’m just waiting on the doctor to give us a day/date for when our little blessing will come into the world and become a part of our lives.

I was sitting here tonight watching television with Jessica when she let out a long groan. I asked her what was wrong and she said “I just want Rube to hurry up and get here.” I couldn’t help but ask “Why?” and she replied with “I just can’t wait to meet her, and hold her, and love on her.” I completely know how she feels. I’ve put my hands on Jessica’s belly and felt those little hands and feet moving around in there, and I’ve seen her have the hiccups many times. All this, along with all the numerous ultrasounds we’ve had up til now, makes me feel like I already know my little girl. But like Jessica said, I just can’t wait to meet her!